Chaotic days with a Side of Peace of Mind:

Lately has been quite chaotic... and it seems I'm not the only one with that mentality/reality. Waking up isn't the simple act of brushing the covers off your legs and standing up with a slight stretch of the arms. It's thinking, "I've got so much to do today, and half of the people I need to talk to won't return my call!" It's a waste, those thoughts that are pessimistic and can't change anything, but sometimes I feel they must happen. I should change that, and exit those thoughts from existing-- From now on, no more waking up with worry, I will wake up, breathe, smile and love.

As I look around, everyone seems a little worried about their future. I can't say I'm not worried about mine. None the less, I will write my songs and sing my heart out. But just as B always says, "Nothing is for sure until it happens." Which, as unfortunate as that is, it's the truth. In the business (yes, business) I have chosen, people are often flaky and sometimes lie about their careers or connections. And that's okay, because it just happens, as long as I am not one associated with them or hearing their lies. I have been fortunate to be (over all) working with people that do have my best in mind, and do truly care about music rather the money. Opportunities are definately in grasp, and I'm constantly thanking God for them. We will see where He takes me...I am willing and ready to do whatever He has. I'd rather be in His will, even if what He has is different and I don't see the whole picture, then on my own, not in control and completely confused. Following what Christ wants for my life is difficult a lot of the time, because I want everything when I want it. And even though I know His timing is perfect, I still argue and throw pathetic fits. He is sovereign, and I know He will take care of me.

I wrote a new song yesterday. I have been practicing classical music on the piano. Oh, and at this moment, my hair is being colored platinum blonde, as per usual. Did I mention the color on my head is BLUE? It's kind of fantastic, although I'd die if someone I knew walked through the front door and saw me in this state.


I hope all of whoever is reading has the best day. I really do mean that too! Today is beautiful, quite hot and humid, but hey, it's Arkansas- in the summer! What else should we Arkansans expect?


A hopeful girl,
Charity