She's gone and her voice is going hoarse.

I miss your sweet giggle after small sentences containing something sort of funny that we ended up laughing about for approximately 5 or 8 minutes. Hello Hannah Watson. Or should I say goodbye? I must visit you soon in the state of Alabama... You're blabbing in the most delightful way about ten dollar pillows from Garden Ridge, "So those cover up the fact that we didn't make the bed spread long enough.." Yes, a couple of weeks ago, Han and I attempted to create a bedspread cover for her dorm bed. She trusted the lie I spilled out multiple times- claiming I was an expert sower. Yeah, I didn't even where to locate the on switch to where the bobbin was. It was quite a little mess, so we found other ways to finish the project and the end product seemed adorable and a perfect fit. But in the end, as she sits indian style on the floor parallel to the end of her tiny dormitory bed, she realized it was unreasonably SHORT. How depressing.

Well, so far I have written and finished a total of two songs and there are many a poem and short story that live in my journals- past and present- that are dedicated to that wonderful lady. She really is a great inspiration, from the way she moves to the sound of her bouncy laugh. The way she imitates the music playing as we drive down any given street in Little Rock, to the way she reads the book of Proverbs, Ephesians, or Revelation. She just has this art to her, almost a special species she creates with every breath through those lungs. I am ever so filled with pride to call her my best friend. Sweet girl. Can't get enough time with her.

But hey, we'll create something soon- I'm sure of it. Whether it be a mess of a milkshake, or a decoupaged duvet. It will be great and it WILL happen.

You are the icing, and yes- you want one.

A hopeful girl, Charity

Getting ready!

Practice! Practice! Practice!

Friday before Sunday, just woke up and I'm a bouncy mess of excitement, with only one sip of coffee. Two more days, including this one, until I shake the hands of pop/punk band 'Boys like Girls'. I can't believe I'm getting the opportunity to open for them. So many moments have been made real through the high chorus of 'Great Escape' and the rushing result of wind because the roof is down. My car loves to push play to that band, and it's pretty exciting revving up the crowd to listen, with sentences like," EVERYBODYYY!! Are you ready for BOYYSS LIKKE GIRLSS?"


Well, that's enough all caps for one day. Have a good one and leave a comment so I know I'm not just repeating your name over the Walmart intercom and you happened to leave 15 minutes earlier.

A hopeful girl,
Charity

Chaotic days with a Side of Peace of Mind:

Lately has been quite chaotic... and it seems I'm not the only one with that mentality/reality. Waking up isn't the simple act of brushing the covers off your legs and standing up with a slight stretch of the arms. It's thinking, "I've got so much to do today, and half of the people I need to talk to won't return my call!" It's a waste, those thoughts that are pessimistic and can't change anything, but sometimes I feel they must happen. I should change that, and exit those thoughts from existing-- From now on, no more waking up with worry, I will wake up, breathe, smile and love.

As I look around, everyone seems a little worried about their future. I can't say I'm not worried about mine. None the less, I will write my songs and sing my heart out. But just as B always says, "Nothing is for sure until it happens." Which, as unfortunate as that is, it's the truth. In the business (yes, business) I have chosen, people are often flaky and sometimes lie about their careers or connections. And that's okay, because it just happens, as long as I am not one associated with them or hearing their lies. I have been fortunate to be (over all) working with people that do have my best in mind, and do truly care about music rather the money. Opportunities are definately in grasp, and I'm constantly thanking God for them. We will see where He takes me...I am willing and ready to do whatever He has. I'd rather be in His will, even if what He has is different and I don't see the whole picture, then on my own, not in control and completely confused. Following what Christ wants for my life is difficult a lot of the time, because I want everything when I want it. And even though I know His timing is perfect, I still argue and throw pathetic fits. He is sovereign, and I know He will take care of me.

I wrote a new song yesterday. I have been practicing classical music on the piano. Oh, and at this moment, my hair is being colored platinum blonde, as per usual. Did I mention the color on my head is BLUE? It's kind of fantastic, although I'd die if someone I knew walked through the front door and saw me in this state.


I hope all of whoever is reading has the best day. I really do mean that too! Today is beautiful, quite hot and humid, but hey, it's Arkansas- in the summer! What else should we Arkansans expect?


A hopeful girl,
Charity

Trust.Love.Grace.

What is trust? I think I give it to a lot of people and don't even know that I am. It's just an unconscious act I do, and I guess the reason would be that fact that I haven't been badly bruised by someone abusing my trust. It's pretty vital to have between people.

I want to make a lot of things habit in my life.
For instance:

-Constantly re-evaluating where my eyes are.. are they on me? Because if so, none of my true goals in life will be fulfilled because I'll be too worried if everyone likes me, or if there's something on my face.

-Am I extended true love and grace to others? Pure love (definition 1 Cor. 13) is rare to attain, but life is so much sweeter when I stop acting jealous, or in-patient, and just listen and breathe. True grace's best example is Christ, and I just need to learn daily what it means to forgive and forget. He says he cast our sin as far as the east is to the west.. and He tells me to strive to be in Him and become more like Him. Am I tossing my hurts from other people as far as the east is to the west? Or am I clutching onto them, ready to throw it at them adding tears and built up pain since the action was first committed. I don't want to be held back in life by things I can't over. Give me your eyes and let me forget. Let me love.

-Am I really giving you everything? When I try and hold onto certain parts of my life, everything starts to spiral downwards. Because I am in control. And what do I know? I don't know what is best for me. You are the one who created me and loves me more than the clouds gently floating throughout throughout an overcast day. You breathed my breathe in me... I want you to have every part of my life, because you are good, you are righteous, and you know best.


i love you Lord.


I want your true love -- because that will never fail.


4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails.

obsessed.

WITH GLEE


how sad though.. ? Because the episodes can be quite... interesting.. I love the music. and the cast . wow.


I wanna be on this show.

I am constantly listening to Endless Love, Taking Chances, or Gold Digger... yes.

and if you really wanna laugh, just listen to (you're)Having my baby .. it's quite hilarious!

I hope all of you are doing GREAT.


cev.

Picture Blog:

Once again here we go with the pictures!






That is Caiden and Cammie -- family friends in L.A.

This blog has just begun i will be back later to make it betteR! hah!

I've never been here...

What are you up to?

I am in a sunny land shaking hands.

How do you like it out there?

It's a little.. dry.. and I drink endless bottles and plastic cups full of water but still seem dehydrated.

Is anything difficult happening?

Yes, missing people and confused by all the highways.

Is there anything you need?

200 hours of sleep, the ocean to be warm, and a hug from Bobby Banister.

Are you making this quiz up?

Yes.

Would you move out here?

If God told me to. Wherever He starts opening doors and it seems I should walk through them, I will go.

Why would you not move out to L.A.

Well, the singing side of things can take place from LR, Nashville, ... Anywhere. But, the acting side of things would have to happen in L.A. So, my dream being Glee, I would have to pack my bags and fold my dresses, catch a plane to here.

Are you feeling confused?

Feeling confused is wonderful though, because I am so at peace with the fact that God will show me what to do. He will make clear where I am supposed to go, or which managers I need to really think about going with. So being confused is great because He will always show up.

What is your dearest verse as of late?

Proverbs 3.3 - Let love and faithfulness never leave you. Bind them around your neck, write them on the tablets of your heart.

That verse is becoming so vital in my everyday. I read scripture, pray and tell God the intricate details of my lately, and finish with that beautiful verse. How alluring are the words -- they paint a picture and I adore that picture. Lord you are such a graceful writer.


Thank you for reading this interesting blog. I know it was different in the way I talked to all of you.. but I just felt like doing that hah! Have a great day... !!

Soon-Cev


ps the title is deeper than investigating the new free ways ...