Today needs to START.

Sitting in bed for the past hour doing little nothings - sipping my coffee, sending hello texts to S.J. and Taylor G, watching Miley and Usher on Good Morning America (don't worry they aren't doing a tour together/ duet song... though that would be the best disaster ever) -- and I really just need to jump out of bed, run over to my 3 piles of laundry, and start the day. Ha. My room looks like a five year old's morning hair - a mess. Well, when I click "publish post" on this blog I will officially have no excuse of wasting any more of this ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS DAY! That should be enough to get me to the window - it's bright outside. YES!

This week holds many mysteries and surprises. I can't wait to unwrap the ribbons and see what's inside the box. I am going on a trip. My momma and I are flying out of Arkansas to L.A. - It could be a great, fun trip. Or a little more. We'll see. No matter what I am sure (and can't wait) to smile to a lot of people. Give meaningful hugs and laugh often. God is so good. No matter what this trip holds that is the bottom line. He is good. I do not deserve what He has given me- my family, my friends, or His never ending mercy. Thank you. If I get scared on the plane, at the beach, or in an interview, He will be there. Not just chillin to my right, but holding my hand! Gripping it to remind me that He has a plan and no matter what, He is sovereign.

Today will be good. Now that my perspective is where it needs to be!


The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)

Woke up and put on my poetry dress.

Haiku:

Dreamers gaze at sky
Clouds and hours drift on by
Tick tock- waste the clock

Sometimes you wake up and it's two hours past your deadline. You have either fallen asleep and now you've missed your friends birthday party, or a plane ride, or the sunset. Maybe we all just need to wake up. I was tempted to make the last line something like this - Sometimes false is sweet / or / False is sweeter. Describing that life is rough, and our dreams/daydreams are a ride in the park. Sometimes those seem better for the moment, until you have wasted two days on a past situation or a pretty flower… just watch out and be alert before the clock says tomorrow.


Here is a poem - wrote it this morning I think I'll call it - Lover's trick

The lovers of today
make running mistakes,
tripping and tricking all in the same place.

"Sorry's" are fluent,
spoken like air.
Changes not made, yet somehow they care.

But if true and honest love was found,
in your heart, it should abound
Up and over the all the tripping
Of past mistakes and translucent fate.

Love is more than feeling,
Definition stresses meaning.
No one said it's easy- still, do not let go.

Open your eyes, yet the sun may be bright.
Face the obstruction blocking the tide.

Sweeter it is when all is met.
Jumping the fence-
Tasting the quench.

Thank you for reading. It is a delightful day and I can't wait to say hello.

soon. cev.

Chill bumps.

Does anyone else get chills from Aladdin? Maybe it's Cinderella or Beauty and the Beast for you, but Aladdin never ceases to make me beam smiles and "aawwww"s ! I love it. I know every word, the outcome and yet I could never watch it too many times. Disney, you are really wonderful. Besides the fact that I grew up thinking I could attain hair like Jasmine or Ariel, you really make me think dreams can come true. Thank you. I'll never stop watching and being surprised by this movie... and in life.

Soon-Cev

As of..

Today:

I sit outside, staring onto a field fighting yellow grass meanwhile hopeful flowers that have taken advantage of 70 degree weather. I'm on a swing ( on a boat.. ahha) and I just ate a salad. I swear I could talk to spring right now because I am so excited to see her. I am eyeing a squirrel as it scampers down the tree and ruffles its feathered tail. Wonderful. Fantastic. Fabulous. I am so excited to be here in this place physically and in life. Confused most days but I try to not to let uncertainty have more than one hour of twenty-four if it is indeed trying to consume my time..



And now I just got home from Glorious at the REP and Susie and I spent many breaths absolutely in awe of the moon. It looked like it had been stolen from a childhood fantasy book and perhaps someone was about to plop onto its crescent smile singing a song simultaneously warming our hearts. Susie, I adore you deary! Thank you for dreaming the way I do. And pushing me and making me do triple takes because you look so hot!

i love it..

muah world. cev.

soon.

Breath of now...

As i sit here in the living room, next to my kitty, I am actually not doing what I wanted! I wanted to go to sleep early and now I am afraid I might have begun a blog that might not have a REAL subject. Here we go, I am so ready for summer. I am sincerely awaiting being forced to apply sunscreen and sunglasses to avoid long term damage to this body. Can't wait to make random smoothies with the frozen fruit in our freezer, take it outside and just watch clouds float by. I worry though that I am building it up, the expectations never meet reality when I dream this much. But, the cold is quite unbearable, so I can't help but wish.
Do you ever just wonder what is coming up in life? Whether tomorrow, next week or three years from now. I am finding myself listening to my cat snore and my mind mix up the formula of the future. I definately don't know though what I will be doing next year. I love thinking of what seems could happen- singing, writing on a daily basis, loving on people and exploring new streets... But I plan things for tomorrow and then get stuck in traffic, sleep in, or end up staying home. All of these sentences are just trying to express how unknown it all is. I could be here for twenty more years, or twenty days, and all I really know is what I believe. I love knowing that God is constant. Because life, days and people- ALWAYS changing. But I see a sunrise...dream of you painting it, and whispering to me that you are more constant than the sunrise. Something I anticipate and adore when I wake to see it. I love KNOWING that you are constant. Always faithful. Thank you, it is the least I can do and say, but I mean every letter, thought and breath that comes before and after saying those two words. Thank you.
yours,Cev


soon.